Remember

Who would want to forget their past? The people who have walked in and out of your life, the impact they made while they were a part of it. Who wants to forget where they came from, and who helped get them where they are now? Well, many people do. A lot of people's lives are filled with sadness and pain, and they would rather do anything to forget it rather than ever remember. I have had pain and sadness in my life, but I won't forget. I believe that people walk into our lives for a reason, they serve a purpose, and sometimes when that purpose is done they don't stick around. While it's sad to lose people, they will always leave their hand prints on our lives. Never forget. Hold onto those prints, don't let them fade, let them be a part of you. Whether good or bad, everything we've been through, and everyone we've encountered in our lives had an impact on us.

My past is so full of people I loved, people I do miss. People I hurt and people who hurt me. I remember all of you.

You touched me in the deepest way. Love, first love. How could I ever forget your face, your smile, your eyes? I can't. I still remember what it was like to hold your hand, to kiss you, everything. I do not long for those things again, that time has past, but I do long for a time when we could talk and you would not seem so saddened by my presence. I want you to live a happy life, find love with someone new and live it to the fullest. My heart was yours once, and part of it always will be, but I am no longer in love with you, nor do I long for your touch. But, to hear your voice and to know you're happy, now that would be a great gift. I could never forget you, nor do I want to. I hate that our lives had to part the way they did. Five and a half years with you, and I barely know you now. You haven't known me for a while. I would wish that we could be friends, if that would make you happier. It would make me smile to know that you are alright, and that, you are happy. You should know that I am happy, they happiest I've ever been honestly. I hope the same for you.

Puppy love. You were my first real kiss, it was cute and I liked it. You were so nervous, I was too. We were such good friends for so long after this, I wish I knew what happened. Why did we fall apart? You and your brothers used to be my best friends, what happened? No one said anything, we just stopped talking, stopped hanging out. I used to see you every Sunday, sometimes I'd stay all weekend. We'd go to church, make lunch, play paintball, go for walks, plan mountain trips, the list goes on and on. I wish I could talk to you again, I wish I knew how you were.

Heartbreaker. You were only after one thing, but I didn't know that at the time. I thought I was in love, but what does a freshman know about love really? I was blinded by hormones. I never gave you what you wanted, and for that you broke my heart. Since then you won't speak to me, not even a little. You chose only to be hateful towards me in the end, and then we just never spoke again. You changed immediately after we weren't together anymore, it was like I didn't know you at all. I think that's what hurt the most, feeling like I never really knew you. I do hope the best for you.

Chasing dreams. You were my best friend in middle school, and then you moved away. You have no idea how sad it made me. We talked all the time on the phone but when I lost your number I thought surely I'd never hear from you again. I found out later you liked me way back then, which is funny I guess because you were so close to all the guys I dated but you never asked me out. It's funny how those things work out huh? I did get to see you at the state fair that year, and it was the best thing to see you again! I wish I hadn't lost your number, and I wish I could have made it for your wedding. I really hope things are going so great for you.

Best friends have their ups and their downs, but I loved you all the same. You were with me from elementary school, and I spent basically all my time with you. You've got a beautiful family now, and that's so great for you. I haven't seen you since you moved away in high school, and I know we weren't as close when you left. I just couldn't support some of the decisions you were making, I hope you can understand that and forgive me. I can't forget all the fun we had growing up, and I really hope things are going great for you now.

I'm so in love with you. I will never forget the first time I met you. The way you looked at me the way you do, it makes me all nervous inside in the best kind of way. The first kiss that absolutely stole my breath away. A moonlight dance that I go back to in my mind over and over again. You are so amazing and I know you haven't been a part of my life for very long but I feel like I've known you forever, and I love you so so much. I hope I never lose you, and I know I will never forget you. I never knew love could be so amazing. You are my sunshine, and you light up my whole life each and every day.

Jess you're just trouble haha! You're the sister that God forgot to give me, and I really do believe that. We have been through so much and I've known you for what feels like a million years! If you ever disappear from my life I can promise I will hunt you down and bring you back because my world just won't be the same without your silly amazingness. I know we've had our ups and downs, but we've made it this far. We've yelled at each other until we're blue in the face, and then laughed ourselves to tears, it's a pretty crazy relationship we've got going on but I love it. You probably know me better than anyone, and I'm so glad I've had you all these years.

This barely scratches the surface of the memories of people I've had, and do have, in my life, but there's just so much that I don't know how I'd ever write it all down! So take a moment to reflect on your life, your past and present. What do you remember? Who do you remember? What do they mean to you? Would you rather forget or will you chose to remember?